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Name: Caitlyn
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Dallas
Gender: Female


Interests: Well.... I'm a huge music freak, I like bands such as: Nine Inch Nails, A Perfect Circle, TOOL, Shinedown, Shadows Fall, Korn, Evanesence, Nightwish, AFI, Marilyn Manson, Saliva, Finger Eleven, The Vanished, Blue October, Eisley, Muse, Franz Ferdinand, Chevelle, Seether, Smile Empty Soul, Knockout Kings, Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace, LIT, etc. There's a whole bunch more things I like to do, but if you really wanna know, ask me.
Expertise: Writing
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art


Message: message me
AIM: caitminor
MSN: cheeseismysalvation@hotmail.com


Member Since: 10/2/2005

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Thursday, November 10, 2005

Currently Listening
See You on the Other Side
By Korn
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Funniest Song in the fucking world... for all you emo's don't start crying over it.

”My life is spiraling downward. I couldn’t get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert. It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like “Stab My Heart Because I Love You” and “Rip Apart My Soul” and of course “Stabby Rip Stab Stab” And it doesn’t help that I couldn’t get my hair to do that flippy thing either…like that guy from that band can do….some days you know...”

I’m an emo kid, non-conforming as can be
You’d be non-conforming too if you look just like me
I have paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I’m almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
Cause I feel real deep when dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression, most just call me a fag
Our dudes look like chicks and chicks look like dykes
Cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don’t jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
I’m dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister’s mascara now I’m grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can’t get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me, it’s never any fun
They say they already have a pussy, they don’t need another one

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don’t jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

”My life is just a black abyss... ya know...it’s so dark. And it’s suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip, tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans...which look great on me by the way.”

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped gives me an erection
I write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I’m just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me “Catcher in the Rye” and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said that I like girls I’d only be half right
I look like I’m dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw XBox I play old school Nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hate my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo

”My parents don’t get me ya know. They think I’m gay just because they saw me kiss a guy…well, a couple guys …but still, I mean it’s the 2000’s, can’t two…or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay. I mean, chicks dig that kinda thing anyways. I don’t know diary, sometimes I think you are the only one that gets me…you’re my best friend. I feel like tacos.”

<3 Peace, love, empathy.


Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Currently Listening
The Autumn Effect
By 10 Years
Wasteland
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I hate my god damn fucking life... everytime I get a step closer to the slightest pit of serenity, it blows up in my god damn face. Joy's funeral was today, got up there to talk and fucking broke down... God I'm such a fucking pussy....

Anyway, some good news is that Suzie (my spanish teacher's wife) said I could stay at their house for a while til things settle at my house... so hopefully it will go through.

And Danny.. you really didn't have to send the hat, that's so fucking awesome that you got to hang out with Korn though!!! And in December, we'll be partying it up at that concert haha. I love you.

</3


Friday, November 04, 2005

Currently Listening
Saw 2
By Original Soundtrack
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Rest In Peace Joycelyn...

.....nothing really to say.

Sucks for this bastard...

^ Amanda from the first one.. she's having a fucked up life...

</3 Fuck life...


Monday, October 31, 2005

Hey this is Adrianna typing for Caitlyn... so here's what happend.

Joy and her and driving home from the theater and some asshole runs a red light while they're turning and runs right into Caitlyn's side of the car, the car goes into a spin and eventually hits a telephone pole straight on. Caitlyn got knocked out of impact and her leg was stuck in the car and it was smashed in three pieces, so she won't be able to walk w/out crutches for quite some time.

So here's her injuries:

  • Fractured rib
  • broken leg
  • concussion
  • excessive blood loss

...sadly she doesn't realize the severity of it, but she should be coming home either today or tomorrow, they wanna make sure her blood level is ok to leave. but don't worry, she'll be okay!

...Have a happy halloween? o.O

</3 empathy


Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Currently Listening
Vol. 3: The Subliminal Verses
By Slipknot
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^ That's my type of movie.. just minus the meat part. Lol.

So I'm working my ass off to get a job so that I can go up to Indianna to see my beloved Danny. Muah! More posty shit later.

<3



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